"i will bring you down"

it's so fitting, so perfect.
i bring people down.
maybe down to reality.
maybe down emotionally or spiritually.
i just bring people down.

do i have the same odd perspective as my idols?
do i try too hard?
it's not like i sit around and think of ways that the world is messed up.
i don't focus on coming up with a negative perspective.
i just want perspective, any perspective.
i want and need an opinion.
what is life without our own stupid individual ideals?

i want answers,
and i even want people to question my point of view.
i want to know what is right.
will i still lie to myself despite this knowledge?
quite possibly,
but at least the point has been made.
at least someone took the time to add a theory.

does this whole fucked up situation piss me off?
of course,
i haven't been this emotionally off in a while,
she does that to me.
but that's why i love her,
because she challenges me to think differently.
she shows me a different point of view,
maybe not always the right one,
just different.
and she will kick me in the balls,
and she will slap me in the face,
and she will rip out my fucking heart just to get her point across.
that's why i love her,
because she brings me down like only i,
like only we know how...