i have a friend here at school who is gorgeous.
she's smart, she's funny, i smile every time i see her,
she's just an awesome person.
since i met her,
i've wanted go out with her.
there's been a few instances where i may have had an opportunity to ask her,
but i have not.
she's not even that far out of my league,
but i have not.

for the longest time,
i've wished that she would want to go out with me,
but today,
i came to the conclusion that i don't want that.
not because i like her less or i think she's worth any less than she was before,
i just don't think i'm the right guy right now.

then i started thinking bigger.
she's not the only girl that i feel strongly for,
there are a few, not a lot, but a few,
and i just don't think i'm the right guy right now.
i'm not the courting guy,
i'm not the guy who gets the chicks,
i'm certainly not any kind of mr. right,
i'm just not that guy right now.
someday for someone, maybe,
but right now,
i'm just not him.

it's hard being alone sometimes,
but i think i'm finally over it.

someday though,
even if only for a couple moments,
i will be that guy.
i'll start the conversation,
i'll go on the date,
i'll make the move,
someday, for someone.
but not today,
and not tomorrow,
and probably not in the very near future,
but someday,
and today, i'm ok with that...