i have a plan.
never in my life have i really had a plan,
but i kinda do now.

my plan is to keep working my way through school,
so that when i graduate, i have no kind of debt looming over me.
also, my car will be paid off by then too.
i will be at zero.

the next step is to leave for a while.
the second that i am at zero,
i think i'm just gonna take off for a while,
maybe with purpose, maybe without,
either way i want to escape without direction for a while.

my only real goal for my life is some kind of cross country or east coast tour with my music.
i'm past the point of needing to be a superstar,
i just want to take my music around just to say i have.
it's about the music, not the fame.

beyond that, i have no real goals or career aspirations.
the way i see it,
as long as i'm alive i'm gonna be doing something,
so what does it matter what career i take up.
in the bigger picture, a career is just a small portion of a life anyways.
i'm not so concerned with that.

plans do have a funny way of changing though.
there isn't a whole lot that would change my current plans,
but i can think of a few things.
mostly family and friend stuff, they come first.

then there's that whole relationship aspect of things and the plans could change for one person.
i was once told to forget, and i have mostly.
but every now and then, i remember and i miss her.
when i forgot, i forgot not just her,
but the whole desire.
it dawned on me the other day that i haven't been with anyone for anything in a long time,
not even a stupid date or even gotten a number.
i just don't have the motivation.
sometimes it's because i'm scared, i know.
but usually i'd just rather make a friend.

i'm not a ladies man,
i don't think i'd really like meaningless sex.
i had a love,
and as much as i try to forget or right songs about how i'm over her,
the truth is that i'm not.
i have a "one who got away,"
and i'm not over her,
and i can't forget.
but i'll respect her till the day i die,
and if she doesn't want me to be a part of her life,
then i won't be.

i've done some stupid things to her,
and some even stupider things in her absence,
but i think i'm changing for the better now.
i'm not asking for a second chance,
but should she ever need me for anything,
i hope she can remember that i'll always be willing,
and i'm not hard to find...