why do i keep doing this to myself?
wasting my head on a couple of "two-bit ass holes?"

at this point i just want my mics back so that i can be over and done with them.
it's shitty how they're handling this whole mess.
so much for priding yourself on your professionalism.
so much for "i thought we were friends."

i've made mistakes, i'll admit that.
i've made a lot of stupid mistakes, especially recently.
i've done things and handled things worse then they could have been done or handled,
but at the end of each mistake i've made is an apology,
or at least an honorable attempt to make things right.
the shit that their pulling on me now is just downright low.
it's calculated, unlike any of my mistakes.
i'm an emotional hothead, sure.
i mess up when my emotions get the best of me and i stop thinking.
but almost every time this happens i regret it afterwards and seek to correct it.
this is different, this was planned.
this is calculated betrayal at its lowest.
to make a move like that and not face-up afterwards is just plain pathetic.

i'm tired of this game.
i'm tired of being upset over this.
i want my mics.
i want my lyrics.
i want these two "friends" out of my life...