"if i were the keys, then where would i be?
if it's up to me, then i would be free."

i've said it before,
and i'll say it again:
i hate schedules.
i hate planning.

everything is so set right now,
it makes me ill.

class at this time,
work at that time.
this paper due today,
this test tomorrow.
uh-oh, if that test is tomorrow,
then time must be arranged before then to study.
that means that this errand will have to wait until three days from now.... blah-blah-blah-blah-bullshit.
and we're back to my never ending theme:
freedom, or my lack thereof.

what do i want?
i want to live on my own terms,
entirely my own terms.
life should not be scheduled.

"life is what happens while we're making plans."

sure, i could just do what i want.
i could follow my heart and pursue a life of freedom,
but there are so many people that depend on me,
so many people with such high hopes for me.

and they'll say,
"what a shame. the boy had such.......potential."

when you're young,
your parents tell you that you can be anything you want when you grow up.
well, what if you just want to be you?
without any purpose or restrictions,
i just want to be me...