what the fuck?!
why am i so messed up?
i'm tired,
really tired.
i don't want to be doing this anymore,
living like this.
i feel sick almost,
like i'm always hungry but couldn't imagine eating anything.
my head hurts real easily.
i get frustrated with people for no reason.
i'm constantly unsatisfied with everything,
myself above all.
it sucks,
i want so badly to feel normal.

i think about it all the time.
i wonder if i could really do it.
would it even do anything for me?
maybe, just maybe...