i read a great interview with brandon boyd.
they asked all the most important questions that i would ask,
and received many of the answers i expected.
the verdict:
school is my form of procrastination.
school is how i get away from what i really want to do.
am i gonna stop?
probably not,
i have too much invested at this point.
it makes sense that in my head i group college with my car payments and all of the things that i need to just get through before i can do what i want.
it is commonly thought that the modern artist needs to sacrifice before he can really have the sense of self that it takes to make honest art.
maybe i have to make this sacrifice?
i know that sounds condescending,
as my sacrifice is hardly the sort of suffering that many have to go through in their lives,
but college is a load,
and it is a sacrifice for someone who isn't their for all the right reasons.
i don't know,
i'm just trying to justify what i'm doing,
just like anybody else.
life continues regardless,
i just wish i could see where this is going...

anyways, happy december!
listen to the pixies.
then listen to the matches.
then listen to a whole bunch of christmas songs.
if you end up at the flaming lips by the end of the day,
congratulations, you've just had a breakthrough!
it might not make sense now,
but it will.
i'd say trust me, but you probably shouldn't.
just listen and digest.

"so to hell with holiday romantics,
december is for cynics, december is for critics.
let's get by on nyquil and hibernate,
december is for cynics.
damn, it's too easy being great..."