are we doomed to be just like our parents when we grow up?
is it really inevitable?

i feel like maybe everything was kinda determined before i had any say.

i don't want to have kids i think.
the more and more i think about it,
i just wouldn't want to subject any kid to the sort of mindset i have.
and yes,
the thought that i might not have any say is a driving force to this thought.
it makes me think that no mater how hard i try to make the kid a better person than myself,
he still gonna end up a fucking loser by nature.
it just seems so hopeless...